Friday, June 5, 2009

Stimming my way into summer vacation

I'm officially done with school and won't have to go back until the end of August and I couldn't be happier. K went for her lining check yesterday and it was only 6.5mm (last time it was 12mm at this point), but the NP said that her lining was already doing what it needed to do and upped her Estrace to 3x/day. I'm not worried as I know it will plump up. K's taking the estrace orally, so I presume it's absorption can be influenced by dietary differences. She goes back on Monday morning for another check and I'm sure her lining will look great!

I posted on Wednesday that stimming is going well, but that it's slow and steady growth. I have about 8 measurable follicles on each ovary, which are all relatively close together in size, but just like last time my estrogen is low. They've upped my meds so that I'm now doing 300IU in the AM and 300IU in the PM. The low estrogen is just some weird thing that goes on with me, so I'm not going to worry about it. In comparison to last cycle I'm growing my follicles at the same rate. My biggest fear is that we'll get to ER and only get a couple of mature eggs, but I keep trying to remind myself that last time growth was slow and steady too and we retrieved 16 mature eggs. Also, in my previous cycle by day 10 of stims follicles literally popped up over night. So, by Monday (cd10) I could have a lot more happening in my ovaries. I've also been having anxiety over my future embryos. I worry that I won't have any. I keep telling myself that I had 8 blasts last time and that with a similar response I'll probably have a few to freeze this time too! Despite my best efforts to calm my nerves with logical, rational thinking I can't stop having the irrational fears that we'll get few, if any eggs, at ER and that we won't end up with any embryos. This is the part of IVF that I despise!


Meg. said...

I'm pulling for you, Niki!

You're doing great, and your will is so strong!

I hope for nothing but the best for you during this cycle.

Soko's Journey to Parenthood said...

Try yo stay positive and focus on the good things in life around you. I have a feeling things will be great come ER day and you will be surprised.

We only had 3 left at time of transfer and 1 of those lucky little miracles worked so you just never know :)

Keeping my fingers crossed and sending lots of prayers upstairs for you :)

Take care and keep us posted.


Heather said...

Thinking of you and sending really good vibes!!!

Kris said...

I always have had follies take grow slow and seem to pop up after 10-12 days on stims too. Eight on each side is fabulous!!

Jaymee said...

here is to:

wonderful embies!!

beautiful, fluffy lining for k!!

sending you all good thoughts!!

Anonymous said...

I am back - I have been thinking of you. The progress sounds promising. I am so glad you are done with school.

Kelly said...

You'll do fine! We're all thinking of you! And you did much better than my try at IVF. 2 embies the 1st time and then out of 13 for the 2nd, only 1 made it to blast. Thank goodness for miracles that result from the very last one. :)

T said...

You are doing awesome.. cycling is so hard..

cheering ya on..

~Denise~ said...

I'm sending all the positive mojo I have!!