Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Special Delivery X 2

No, not that extra special kind of delivery that we all dream of, but the package that arrived is getting us one step closer to that! The Fed.Ex guy delivered my meds today at work and you would not believe the ridiculously large boxes the meds came in! I had a student go to the office to get the packages and of course my nosey students wanted to know what was in the boxes. I told them it was lab supplies because I didn't want to get into it. My students do know that I have infertility issues and that Myles was an IVF baby, but I don't intend to tell them that I'm cycling in June. I will have to miss a couple of my 1st period classes for monitoring, but I'll just tell them that I was at the doctor. I'm lucky that I have prep 2nd period and I supervise a study hall 3rd period because I'll miss those too on the days when I travel to my clinic for monitoring. The clinic is about a 65 minute drive one-way when the traffic is good and because of my all-inclusive shared-risk plan I have to have the monitoring done at the clinic.

This cycle I'm starting off with 150U of Meno.pur in the AM and 300U of Bra.velle in the PM. In IVF #1 I did 15oU of Meno.pur in the AM and 150U of Bra.velle in the PM, so I guess my RE is acting more aggressively with this cycle. He's hoping to stim me 10 days this time instead of 13 days like last time. Other than this change the protocol is the same.


The other special delivery came on Monday night. Remember I mentioned ordering matching t-shirts for K and I to wear at the next ET. Well they arrived and they are super cute! I took a photo, but don't want to post it until I give K her t-shirt on Saturday night. We are going to look so darn cute when we go for the ET!

I'm still dreading Sunday, but J informed me that we are going to get drunk and skip work on Monday. I thought he was kidding, but he took the day off on Monday. So, I'm taking it off also. I'm sure it will be necessary as I'll have an emotional hangover from the anticipated crying I will do on Sunday. I'm going to see my mom tomorrow and she understands that I just need to stay in the house and not face the world that day. The only place I will go is to visit Myles's grave. Other than that I'll be in my house, so I don't have to see little kids, babies, and/or pregnant women. What will you be doing on Mother's Day to make it through the day?

17 comments:

meinsideout said...

It will be here so fast!

As for Sunday...not sure...

I will be thinking of you

Erica said...

Fake it 'til I make it, I guess. I'll be at my mom's. I'm sure my family will say all sorts of cute things about me being a "mommy-to-be" and I'll secretly want to puke. I hate that phrase! And I feel really weird about the whole thing. I'm happy, but it's almost like I'm living in an alternate universe. Like I'm looking down on someone else's life. I don't know...sorry for the rambling.

I'll be holding you in my heart on Sunday.

Kelly said...

Wow look at those supplies! I'll never forget when we were robbed and dh casually told me in front on the police that at least my needles were still there. Just some comic relief for the day.

((((Niki)))) for getting through Mother's Day.

Jess said...

I will be planting 4 rose bushes, one for each baby I lost. I'm actually excited to do it!

I'm so glad your work is willing to let you miss a few classes. I had to leave my district due to the fact that they would not let me go to appointments because "inferitility" is not a medical condition...it is something I want to do not a sickness...F THEM...so glad I don't work for them!

I can't wait to see your shirts!

Hugs for Mother's day!

Rebecca said...

I'm excited for you to begin this cycle! All those meds are just so daunting! Can't wait to see the shirts.

I'll be hugging you from here on Sunday.

Oh yeah, and I think I'm gonna follow Josh's suggestion and get drunk and hibernate on Sunday. Wise man, your husband!

lisa_cleary said...

I'm going to Mass and then to the cemtery to see my son and then home to bed to cry all day....

Dora said...

Sounds like J has a good plan to take care of you. It will be over soon.

Me, I'm going to hibernate. I sent my mom her gift. I call her. Otherwise my plan is sleeping late and then an afternoon nap. Damn it, I can't get drunk! Have one for me.

Meagan said...

WooHoo! Let the new cycle begin!!

Glad you and DH have one another to get through Sunday.

Thinking of you!

Dalene said...

I'll be with the ILs, but will probably skip church and lay low. I've been assured that the weekend will be low-key. I'll visit the cemetery later in the day.

travelaunt7 said...

I'll be thinking of you on Sunday and hoping it's not too hellish for you.

Hugs,
Linda

Duck said...

I'm with your husband, he has a plan, and taking monday off would be good.
what a box of drugs, I did 300 iu puregon way back when I cyclced and 13 days stimming, i too will be on 150 menupur and 400 iu puregon (whenever we do cycle that is). Looking forward to seeing those t's on you and K!!! Thinking of you lots lately, really want great things to happen for you this cycle.

Caroline said...

I will be thinking of you this weekend Niki. I know how hard Mother's Day will be. I just hope you know that you are not alone. Hugs to you. xx

Caroline said...

I will be thinking of you this weekend Niki. I know how hard Mother's Day will be. I just hope you know that you are not alone. Hugs to you. xx

aleutianrunner said...

I remember getting my meds and showing my brother my huge box and telling him "this is what $4000.00 looks like, all wrapped up in this box." He was a little shocked. I'll be following your blog and sending you tons of positive vibes.

Dara said...

I cried hard when I read the poem you posted. I truly believe our babies are watching us from Heaven.

Niki, something I remember from our forums and it was true for me... the anticipation of a day is always worse than the day itself. I know that last Mothers' Day was ok...I survived...cried a LOT...but, survived. Before that, I cried a lot worrying that I wouldn't enjoy ANY part of Mother's Day again. In fact, I enjoyed the time I spent with my family that weekend. They were very sensitive and mentioned that they missed Aaron,too. They still do. Made me feel a bit better in between the tears.

This Mother's Day, I'm still thinking of Aaron as the day approaches. I see a bit of who I thought Aaron would be when I look at Adam and Noah. But, I've got to tell you...I miss Aaron like crazy, knowing well that he'd be an AWESOME big brother, too!

(((HUGS!!!)))

MyLifeMyWorld-SharingADream said...

Wow, that's quite the box of drugs and to get it at work too!

I hope you are surrounded with love this Sunday, if nothing else, love and compassionate people.

Karma & Adam said...

Wow - I forgot about all those drugs...
Can't wait to see the shirts - have a feeling they're going to be great!
I'll be sending you peaceful thoughts tomorrow.