This is my first attempt at blogging. This blog is meant for me to share my thoughts and feelings regarding my infertility struggles, miscarriages, my near death experience with preeclampsia/HELLP, the premature birth of my son, Myles, and his death. I will also use this blog to share my feelings as I reenter the world of infertility in our quest to conceive another child. As anyone who's ever struggled with infertility knows it is a painful, lonely, emotional journey. When you add the overwhelming, debilitating grief of losing a child the journey becomes nearly unbearable. Although I feel like no one else understands my pain, the sad reality is that there are others out there who do "know my sadness." I am not happy to hear that others have lost children, but am strangely comforted in knowing that I'm not all alone in my grief. I have been reading the blogs of other babylost mamas and have cried through their posts as I could've written so many of them myself (albeit probably not as eloquently). I look forward to getting to know others as I enter the world of blogging.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
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2 comments:
Niki,
I hope blogging helps you through the tough times and the good. Many find it very therapuetic.
I think of Myles often.
Denise
(fellow WI PF member)
Hi Niki.
I found you thru Glow in the woods.
Anyway, I have recently started a blog and would like to reference your blog in a post and since I am new to the blogging world, I thought I should ask if it is ok to do that. I'm not very savvy about the blogging rules and I don't want to offend anyone.
I am a mom of 3 boys ages 12,9 and 4. I am posting about my son, Myles (9). I still have not found the right wording that I want to use for the post and mentioning your blogand Kate's as well. But, to make a very long story sorta short, my Myles had surgery 2 years ago to remove a very rare form of cancer. He had the bottom lobe of his lung removed. The pathology results came back cancer and I was blessed because he did not need chemo or radiation, just removing the part of the lung took care of it, they think. I still have to take him every 6 months for CT scans and xrays because he has another spot that they did not remove that looks suspicious to them and they want to keep an eye on it. I have overlooked how thankful I should be so many times. While reading your post today at Glow in the woods,I saw that you had mentioned the name Myles and I clicked over to your blog and read your story about your sweet baby Myles. I watched the beautiful video and cried the whole time. I have not lost a child and I can not even begin to know the feeling but I have such thankfulness for you and all the other moms that share their stories. It puts me in check when I am not expecting it to. And while I would like to reference your site, I do not want to say anything wrong, seem like an ass, or come off as clueless or insensitive. I'm sorry for going on, I just don't want to offend anyone, and I realize from reading your posts and others that because I have not lost a child, I can not begin to understand.
So, if you would rather me not mention your site, I completely understand and will not.
Thank you so much for sharing your brave baby Myles. I can not tell you how much it has made me think.
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