Tuesday, July 8, 2008

I have come to realize ....

In the last few months I have come to realize many things ...

1. I have come to realize that all of my waking thoughts revolve around my son, Myles.
2. I have come to realize that I love Myles more than life itself.
3. I have come to realize that my life is empty without my son.
4. I have come to realize that life isn't fair.
5. I have come to realize how much I love my husband and how much he loves me.
6. I have come to realize how important my memories with Myles are to me.
7. I have come to realize what really matters in life.
8. I have come to realize the intense love of a mother.
9. I have come to realize how much my son, Myles, influences my life everyday.
10. I have come to realize how fragile life is.
11. I have come to realize who my true friends are.
12. I have come to realize the intense pain of losing the most important person in my life.
13. I have come to realize that I am no longer who I used to be nor will I ever be again.
14. I have come to realize the purpose of my infertility struggles.
15. I have come to realize that many occurrences in life are unexplainable.
16. I have come to realize that each day brings new challenges.
17. I have come to realize that the pain of losing Myles doesn't get any less intense with time.
18. I have come to realize how fortunate I was to get to spend 26 days with Myles.
19. I have come to realize that I won't ever be waking up from this horrible nightmare.
20. I have come to realize that there's a hole in my heart that will never heal.
21. I have come to realize that all of my dreams have been shattered.
22. I have come to realize that I love staring at Myles' beautiful face.
23. I have come to realize that I love hearing Myles' name said by others.
24. I have come to realize that I will forever be inspired by my son's strength and courage!
25. I have come to realize that Myles gives me hope.
26. I have come to realize that no one else should have to go through the devastation of losing a
child.
27. I have come to realize so much in almost 6 months.

Please feel free to post what you've come to realize since the death of your baby.

5 comments:

sweetsalty kate said...

I've come to realize that some days, the voices of other mamas like you are the only thing that makes me feel sane.

Thank you Niki, for sharing Myles with us, and a hug across the ether...
xo

janis said...

Niki, I just wanted to stop by and send you a big hug. This blog is beautiful. I am wowed by Myles, his strong spirit; his deep imprint on you, forever.

Jen said...

I've come to realize that there are some things that are out of the control of me and God.

I've come to realize that there are people I've never met IRL, who are better friends to me than people I see every day.

I've come to realize that love for your child is immediate and endless.

Bonny said...

Myles is a beautiful name.

SMK said...

I have come to realize that there can be hope and we can learn to love and live again.