Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Silence, Alaska, and K's symptoms

I find myself without words to express my swirling thoughts right now, hence the silence. I'm trying to be patient as we wait for the u/s, which is now less than a week away, by distracting myself with preparations for my Alaska trip. I'm taking 7 high school students to the Kenai peninsula of Alaska for a week long Eco-edventure. We are going to explore temperate rainforest, trek on massive glaciers, sea kayak with marine mammals and birds, cruise the waters on a 26-foot boot in search of orcas and humpback whales, meet native Alaskans, and participate in community conservation projects in conjunction with the US Forest Service. We're not camping, but we're not staying at a luxury resort either. We're staying in a hostel called Moby Dick in Seward. I'm looking forward to the splendor and beauty of Alaska!

Many people have asked me how K is doing and I'm guessing the rest of you are wondering too, so I thought I'd give you an update. Overall K feels good. She's had cramping typical of early pregnancy and has been been feeling extremely exhausted. K says here ( . )( . ) are huge and sore. She's also starting to feel hungry all the time.

I'd be lying to you if I didn't say I'm a little anxious about Tuesday's u/s. Tonight at dinner I told J that I'm worried that we won't see a heartbeat or that there won't be a baby or that ... (insert any fear you can think of). J reminded me that worrying is normal and that there's really nothing any of us can do at this point. Everything is out of our control and we can't change the outcome, but we can control and/or change our attitude and outlook. So, I continue to work hard to maintain a hopeful, positive attitude despite my fears. I can honestly say that overall I do have a "good feeling" and am optimistic that we will get good news on Tuesday.

12 comments:

Kelly said...

You have the right attitude!! I am hopeful too and I know the fear lingers in there but you must try hard to push it away. I can't wait for your blessed u/s on Tuesday!!!

Oh and thanks for letting us know all is well!!

Jaymee said...

cannot wait for the u/s on thursday. j has it all right, even though it feels like an impossible task sometimes.

keep focusing on alaska, sounds like an amazing trip.

(((HUGS)))

meinsideout said...

Gah - waiting sucks. It sounds as though K is well and truly knocked up though!!!

The Alaska trip sounds amazing - what a great experience for hs students. I hope you will be able to enjoy it as well.

Wewurtskihit said...

J is right. For the next 8 months (more or less) you can do NOTHING but wait, hope, prepare and buy anyhting on the planet a baby (babies) needs and doesnt need!

Alaska, wow. Can I come???

PS: make sure you got LOTS of pictures..*grin*

Erica said...

I think her super sore bbs are a good sign too! :) Thinking positive thoughts and sending love your way.

Have an amazing time in Alaska too! That trip sounds fantastic - well, as long as you've got a "select" group of students going with you. Ha!

Meg. said...

Have a *fantastic* time on your trip! I must admit, I'm a bit jealous. =) Your students are so lucky to have you as a teacher, and to be extended this opportunity of a life time.

I'm feeling extremely confident about your baby(ies)! But I still understand that the waiting must be killing you. Keep on constructing that fortress of positivity with J and K!

KP said...

Ooh....sending you happy thoughts and wishes. Am very excited to hear about next week! Your husband has a good attitude towards worrying....but it's still so hard not to do it!

Natalia Ritchie said...

Love the new blog design! Beautiful.
Hoping and Praying for everything to be perfect at the u/s

Saffy said...

Sending sticky vibes and counting down with you to the u/s :)

Caroline said...

It sounds as though everything is going beautifully. x

Sheri-ct said...

You are going to get fantastic news!!!!!!! I am so excited and hopeful for you!

Sheri

Lost in Space said...

Huge hugs on the worry. I can't imagine it would be any other way after all you have been through. Holding you close and looking forward to hearing good news next week.

I so wish I were one of your students. Your description sounds like an ad for a great vacation. (-;