Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Rough weeks ahead

As you can see from my ticker K is currently in her 23rd week of pregnancy. This probably doesn't seem like a significant week to most, but to me it is hugely significant. No we're not at viability quite yet, but 23wks has personal significance to me. While I was pregnant with Myles I was diagnosed with preeclampsia in my 23rd week of pregnancy and was put on home bedrest. Late in the 24th week they discovered that Myles was severely IUGR, which made my preeclampsia diagnosis severe and I was hospitalized. Early in the morning at 25+5 wks I was diagnosed with HELLP syndrome and was forced to deliver Myles via emergency c-section to save my life. So, weeks 23-26 of pregnancy are terrifying for me even when someone else is carrying my babies.

I know that the babies are much, much safer with K and I know that her blood pressure is great, yet I worry. How can I not worry? I keep reminding myself that both babies were measuring 1 week ahead at our last u/s (Myles was already 1.5wks behind at the same point). Next week we have a growth scan and I'm hoping that this will alleviate some worries for me (at least for a couple of weeks). I very much need to see that these babies are weighing over a pound already. I need to see that these babies have grown. I need to see that these boys are healthy and well. We need to get over this hurdle.

19 comments:

Poppy said...

Thinking of you Niki! I'll keep K and your baby boys in my prayers. You hang in there, those little fellas will be in your arms before you know it!

Seraphim said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine the fear you are feeling. Lots of love xxx

Caroline said...

Hi Niki,

I know the next few weeks are going to be a tough reminder. It's only natural that you will feel anxious about it. Each pregnancy is different, and although K is carrying Myles's two brothers, her pregnancy is a different journey.
Thinking of you. x

Kelly said...

And you will! I have faith these next few weeks will go by smoothly. The boys are safe with K!!

((((Niki))))

Ashley & Chris said...

I am SO happy they are measuring ahead! I can only pray that will happen for us in the future! Screw IUGR and I hate pre-e!
I think about you all the time!

meinsideout said...

Thinking of you - it has to be scary. I am here so email or call me anytime, day or night.

tootertotz said...

I'm sorry this is going to be a rought patch for you. Of course those 'milestones' (for lack of a better word) are difficult to reach and move through comfortably. Just hang in there and know how many people are standing with you all and sending well wishes for a continued healthy pregnancy and two happy, healthy boys upon delivery.

For what its worth...you, Kay and the boys will weather this storm.

Donna said...

I'll be thinking of you, Myles and the twins in the next few weeks. Everything is going to go much more smoothly this time around!

Kris said...

I am thinking of you, K and J and sending good vibes your way! The boys seems to be thriving in Ks belly and growing well. To be growing ahead of schedule is awesome and a huge step in the right direction!

I know it is easier to give assvice from the outside looking in, but I am so positive that things will continue to go well for all of you. K is a superstar surrogate and her body and she are doing an awesome job carrying these babies!:)

Kay said...

I have been watching the ticker...and have been sending lots of prayers your way! It is completely understandable what you are going through and you have every right to feel what you are feeling. There are lots of people who are supporting you and K as you go forward!! You are loved!

Dora said...

Oh, sweetie! Of course you can't help feeling this way. But K has a ROCKING uterus. Measuring ahead is awesome. I hope the next scan helps with the worries. Hang in there.

Sheri-ct said...

((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) I will keep you and your babies in my prayers.

Jaymee said...

keeping you in my thoughts as always! hang in there, you will get through this with the beauty and strength that you get through everything.

Idgie said...

Keeping you and the boys in my thoughts and prayers through the next few weeks as always. I know how scared you must be. I hope the scan gives you the peace of mind you are looking for to exhale for a few minutes. (((HUGS)))

Funsize said...

Totally understandable...I feel the same way. Each week is a big milestone, and a week closer to (hopefully) a homecoming, but we just can't forget the bad we've experienced.

xo

Saffy said...

I felt the same way too - I was on eggshells from about 22 - 28 wks after having had a 25wker and each week I'd check the viability stats as I'm sure you'll understand. Like you I was fearful of a repeat of IUGR let alone the PE symptoms but all I can say is take huge faith that the boys are looking so BIG on the scans and that K is doing so well... these little guys are going to be coming home safe and sound :)

Jen said...

Hugs!

Heather said...

Whew, I know how stressful those weeks are. Those parallel weeks in my second pregnancy were horribly stressful.

I'll be thinking of you and your boys, and K.

cmatsukes said...

I know you through Ashley my nieces site I can see how these next few weeks will be hard for you but your babies are safe with your cousin what a person she is a really giving and loving person to do this for you guys you will be blessed by 2 babies soon but you are now blessed with your cousin as well you both derserve all the blessing for all that you have gone through will be saying prayers for you both and the babies coming soon. I just became a great niece and I feel so blessed since I lost my mom in July I needed this happiness and her middle name was my moms name and her grandmas too. Her first Name Makayla is after her late great uncle Mike my late husband so she is so special Makayla Gabriell. Take care and I will be looking for your good news too.