Monday, September 28, 2009

Bittersweet

A few weeks ago I listed the Chic.co Cortina Travel System + an extra base that we bought for Myles on Craigs.list. It was brand new and obviously hadn't been used. In fact the extra base was still in the box. Tonight I sold it for $285 to a nice young woman who was thrilled beyond belief to be getting such a great deal on the new system (retails for $400 at BRU). She's a nurse who's having her first baby in January and fortunately for her she's living in the ignorant blissful state. Although I'm glad it went to such a good home, I'm feeling sad that I sold it. I didn't plan to use it for the twins, so I know it had to go. But it was purchased for Myles and it makes me sad to let it go. I know that Myles didn't even get to sit in it, but it was still "his" nonetheless. I remember spending hours researching it and picking out the perfect system for him. Now it's someone else's and that's hard for me to take. On the one hand I'm happy to be able to use the money to buy something for the twins, but sad that I sold something that was Myles'. Simply put it's bittersweet.

10 comments:

Mo and Will said...

Of course. Everything you write makes perfect sense. There must just be so so many layers of grief and sadness. Letting go of the travel system makes perfect sense rationally and was the right thing to do, but of course it's hard. Thinking of you.

Mo

Lost in Space said...

Our hearts just don't understand rational. I'm sorry, Niki.

The Intended Parents said...

There are so many lawyers, like Mo said to letting go, to grieving for Myles, and although you have the twins to look forwrad to Myles will always be your son, and his memory will always be important to you and your family.
N

Infertile In the City said...

Makes total sense to me. Hugs.

meinsideout said...

((HUGS))

Bonny said...

Bittersweet indeed.

Just Another Day In Paradise said...

Hi I was wondering if you could email me... We have been blessed with an offer of GS and I have some questions about going through a journey with someone "you" know... If you wouldnt mind, Id really appreciate any insight you can provide bnew17 (at) yahoo

Jen said...

Hugs.

I still find it hard to part with Abby's stuff...over more so now to let Alison use it. Whenever she wears something that was supposed to be for Abby, it makes me a little sad.

Dora said...

I can only imagine how bittersweet that was. I would think there will be lots of bittersweet moments as you prepare for your twins. You're such a great mom!

Sheri-ct said...

((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))