Wednesday, May 26, 2010

A mixed bag of stuff

I need to apologize for not posting very often. Yes, I'm busy, but I do have a little bit of time to post in the evenings when the boys are in bed. The truth is that I just don't know what to say most of the time. I'm unsure of where to take this blog. I started it as a way to cope with my grief over Myles' death, continued it to chronicle my infertility journey, and now have been sharing my two bundles of joy. I'm fine with keeping the blog as is and using it as I have been doing despite feeling a bit uneasy reveling in my mommyhood when so many of my blogreaders (likely former blogreaders) are still struggling with infertility. I did after all start this blog as a mother (albeit a babyloss mamma) and didn't start out blogging about infertility. I do think that I should modify my blog title somewhat, especially if I'm going to blog about motherhood and our family. I'd love suggestions if anyone has any ... what do you think I should do with this blog and what could I do to modify the title to better reflect my current blog material?

We are loving our new house and feel so at home here. I was worried that this new place wouldn't feel like our home, but this is the home where we will raise our boys and it feels perfect! The extra space is definitely a huge asset with two babies and all their gear. I'm absolutely in love with my kitchen--the large island and huge walk-in pantry are wonderful! I also love having a huge walk-in closet to house all of my clothes. In our previous house I had to utilize portable closets in my basement to store off-season clothing and then change it out each season (huge pain!). The big front porch on this house is our favorite place to sit at night after we put the boys to bed. My parents bought us two wooden rocking chairs, so we can rock, relax, and listen to the birds sing. Another feature that I suprisingly enjoy quite a bit is the 2nd floor laundry, which was our contracter's suggestion--this means I don't have to haul clothes baskets up and down steps. With two babies I do a ton of laundry, so that's saving me a lot of wasted energy. We still have to put our yard in and do the landscaping, but we're waiting until the fall to put in the grass and we plan to do the landscaping next spring.

Kitchen/dining room:

Living room:

Family room upstairs above the garage (this will become the boys' playroom):

Nursery:


Both Liam and Silas are doing great! We have their 4 month peds appointment next week. It's hard to believe that the boys are almost 4 months old already! Liam is doing great on his acid refluxs meds and is actually a very different baby. He is able to eat 4-6 oz of formula at a time and doesn't cry while he's eating it. Silas continues to do well on the meds too. Both boys go to bed without any problems by 7pm--we bathe them, feed them, and cuddle/rock them (we do this because we like it nt because the boys need it.) The boys wake around 1-2am to feed, immediately fall back to sleep, and don't wake again until around 5am. J does the night feeding and I get up with them at 5am. Most days the boys will play a little after the 5am feeding and then will go back to sleep for another 1-2 hours.

Liam is definitely the needier of the two babies and I'm thankful that Silas is so laid back and patient. I swear Liam cries out of jealousy when I'm holding Silas! Both boys are getting stronger during tummy time and have pretty good head control. They are very happy, smiley babies who grow more adorable by the day. Liam has suddenly become quite interested in holding things ... he regularly grabs and holds skinny rattles, his pacifier and Bright Starts Lots of Links. Liam puts everything and anything he gets ahold of (e.g., fingers, toys, Silas' hand, burp cloths) into his mouth. He also drools a ton, which is why I seriously think he might already be teething. Silas isn't as interested in putting things in his mouth and doesn't drool, so clearly he isn't teething. Silas will grab and hold toys if I put them right next to his hand, but he doesn't seem to be as interested as Liam. Silas appears to be close to rolling over and I wonder every day if I'm going to come into the nursery and find him on his stomach in the crib.

I received a Flip Video Camcorder(digital HD) for Mother's Day from my boys, so one of these days I'll upload a video of them doing something cute. It seems like I record them doing something every day because they seem so adorable not to. Until I figure out how to get a video on here I'll leave you with a few pictures of the boys.


Me and my boys on Mother's Day:

This is what our normal mornings look like (ignore my bedhead and pjs):

13 comments:

My life said...

They are getting so big! I love the Nursery and your new home is beautiful. All the best.

Jaymee said...

you are just at another stage of infertility, or at least that is what i keep telling myself. just because the boys, who are darling, are here does not make everything just go away. plus, this is your space in the world so do what you want.

the boys are just precious! the house looks pretty great too.

meinsideout said...

gorgeous house - and even more beautiful babies!!!

I hope you keep blogging...

Donna said...

I love hearing about and seeing pictures of your little guys! Keep writing!

I find myself in a similar situation - not quite sure what to do with my blog anymore.

Debir said...

Niki: I check often for updates about you, J, K and the boys! Alot of us have been following your story since you got pg with Myles (from SC). I agree with what what other posters have said... this is YOUR space to talk about your life... take it where you want/need it to go :) You have touched so many people with your story Niki, and many or few, there are people who care and are still loving reading your blog.
Debi (SC)

Saffy said...

Hi Niki, can I just start with saying I want your house??! :) hehe
Your blog is YOUR blog. Actually I see your story as pretty inspirational. In terms of blog title, yours sums up your journey so far. I remember a post of yours a little while back about not being sure about where you fitted? i.e. IF, baby loss, new moms, etc etc? I think there are more women in that camp than we'd ever care to realize. That's part of the reason I almost squeal with joy when I see a post from you, why I loved following every step of your journey towards L&S. Where you are now is where you're at. Love the morning pic - I wish I looked that glam :)

Kelly said...

Definitely keep the blog and don't feel bad posting on how much in love you are! You came a long way and noone can feel bad for that! I would change the title at this point like you said. Something about Mommyhood or Our newest Journey through Parenthood. I don't know just throwing it out there! They are adorable and glad everyone is doing well! :)

cmatsukes said...

Your house is beautiful and the babies are so cute you truly are blessed you deserve it after all you went through. Did you hear Ashley is expecting do you remember Angel Nolan. She is doing well so far so praying for the best this time. Enjoy your first summer with the boys.

Kandi Ann said...

Not reading comments first. I think your title is perfect the way it is. And I'm here for the long haul. I love hearing the baby stories. I am 40 and had a full hysto at 34 and cannot procreate in any form (autism and rasin babies won't work so hot) so I love reading about others raising happy babies and watching them grow. I had to leave a blog I read once because the wonderful gal couldn't conceive again and it broke my heart. Now I am back watching her raise her twinks as well. The ones that leave, will check in, Promise. Hugs, xoxo, kandi

Liz said...

Please don't change your title! I love that it acknowledges Myles and your journey. Don't feel bad for writing about your lovely boys, that is why we come! We followed the journey and want to see it continue. :)

Also, what type of wood flooring is that? I LOVE it and we are looking into floors for our house.

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Mercy and Will said...

This is your journey. Just b/c you have those two beautiful boys doesn't mean you dont/ didnt struggle w/ infertility and baby loss. People didnt understand my struggle either b/c I already had a son (when I was 15 before I was diagnosed w/ PCOS). I love reading about what you're up to. Dont stop!

goldenjag25 said...

Oh Niki they are so gorgeous!! You look like you are doing great, I"m so happy for you guys. And OMG your house is gorgeous! Re sleep training, my only advice is to do a modified CIO. With Sarah we did that at night and naps and it worked great. Also don't make the mistake I did of letting them nap only on you for the first 8 months...oops! ;) Sleep definitely begets sleep so naps are important. You are doing great!