My Journey to Myles and Beyond to Surrogacy: January 2011

Friday, January 21, 2011

Happy 3rd Birthday Myles!

It's hard to think that Myles would have been 3 today. I remember very vividly the day he was born and can't believe that it was three years ago already. I miss Myles just as much today as I did the day he left us, but somehow, some way I have learned to live life and smile again. Time softened the edges of the hole in my heart, but the wound still remains. The pain comes and goes, but comes less frequently. Liam & Silas have helped me to love life again, but neither of them can take Myles' place. I often look at my two living boys and wonder if Myles would be like either of them in looks and/or personality. I wonder if he'd be fiesty like Liam or serious like Silas. I wonder what it would be like to have a 3 year old. If only things were different then I would know. I feel Myles' energy around me often and like to think of him smiling somewhere over the rainbow. I miss you Mr. Myles and love you dearly my sweet boy! Happy 3rd Birthday Smyles!