K's Decision ...

Last night I received an email from K asking if I was home and we had just walked in the door from seeing a movie. She told me to check my email and my stomach turned. I have the tendency to immediately assume the worst. I opened my email and saw that I had two emails from K. One was sent a couple hours earlier and the other had just been sent. I opened the first email to find K asking me questions about our estimated timeline. She said she figured I had one knowing how I am, but surprisingly and maybe even shockingly I didn't/don't. I was trying to excercise patience and not make any specific plans until I heard back from K as to whether or not she'd be continuing this journey with us.

The next email said K and her husband had spent the evening discussing her desire to continue the journey with us. K's husband, T, expressed his continued concern and worry for her, but in the end said that he would support her in any decision that she made. So, K then said "I really have no reservations about doing a repeat cycle...so if you still want me...as Jason Mraz says in one of my favorite songs...'I'm Yours'." Tears started rolling down my eyes and I could hardly read the email to J. We are both so excited to be able to continue this journey with K. We started this beautiful journey with K and her family and we want to end it on a wonderful note with them.

I feel very strongly that K is going to get pregnant again. With all 4 frozen transfers we did we had at least one of the totsicles implant, so we are hopeful that with a fresh transfer at least one (maybe even two) will implant. We are hopeful that a handful will be healthy and that next time K will be able to deliver us a baby. I feel as though K and her family need redemption and the way that they will get that is by seeing our journey through to a healthy, live baby.

On Monday I will call my clinic and I will tell them that we are ready to move forward. Dr. S wants to do another SHG on K following the D&C, so that will likely be the next step. I think we'll be doing an ER & ET in early June as I know Dr. S will be in the country and available per our meeting, but I have to call the IVF scheduler to get the ball rolling. Ideally I'd be starting stims at the end of May. I'm so happy that we now have something definitive to look forward to! For the past month I've been sitting and spinning in my negative emotions while we were waiting and now I feel like I can look to the future with hope!

K as I told you last night J and I are so lucky to have you and your family in our lives! We love you and can't thank you enough for what you are willing to do for us!