Mourning in Mexico with Margaritas

Per K's request we are going to go to Mexican as planned. We fly out early tomorrow morning. We are hoping that the sun and tons of tequila will be good for us as we work through the emotions of this loss. I am worried about K, but I know that she has an amazing support system in her husband, children, friends and family. I know she's strong and I know she will be fine, yet I still worry. I assume that a little break from us may be helpful for K. She may need some time alone to work through the emotions of the loss. I know it's a different set of emotions to deal with than mine, but I'm sure it is just as challenging (if not more). K so wanted this dream to come true for us and now she has to deal with the utter disappointment and the physical pain. I just wish her peace and healing in the process.

BTW ... for those of you who have been wondering I did do the Brazilian wax. My appointment was Wednesday night and I figured that with the emotional pain I was going through any physical pain would seem insignificant. I have to say it really wasn't that bad and I'd definitely do it again.

I'm off to soak up some sun, regroup, and drink muchos margaritas! I'll try to do at least one quick post from Mexico, but promised J that I wouldn't be blogging during our vacation.

Anxious

I am so anxious for the u/s tomorrow! It's only about 18 hours away now, but it can't get here soon enough! I had a busy, fun weekend, which was a nice distraction, yet the excitement and nervousness were still there just under the surface. J and I agreed that if the u/s reveals bad news we'll be crushed, but know that we'd survive. The pain would be sharp, but in our opinion nothing will ever compare to the pain of losing Myles. So, we know that we'd deal with any potential bad news and we'd continue forward in our journey. Despite preparing for the worst news we are hopeful that we will get great news! K is the eternal optimist, so she's expecting some good news! Speaking of K ... she's now a true POAS-addict--K POAS on Friday afternoon and the test line showed up on the test before the control line! What have I done to sweet K?!

Tonight I will most definitely take a few Xa.nax to help me sleep and might even take one or two tomorrow afternoon before the appointment. I'm hoping that the hours fly by tomorrow! Both J and I will be accompanying K to the appointment tomorrow afternoon and I'm hoping to be able to get home quick to post an update before we head to my aunt's for dinner.

UPDATE ON POTENTIALLY BRAZILIAN WAX ...

It sounds like most who've done it say it was horribly painful. One of my good friends told me that it left her bleeding and eventually black and blue! Yikes! I'm not sure I should try this a few days before I spend over half of my day in a swimsuit. I am starting to chicken out. I admit I find it comical that so many of you are anxious for me to be the guinea pig! Well I haven't cancelled the appointment yet, so it's still possible that I'll go through with it. I may just have to keep to the tried and true method of grooming my girly bits--razor and shaving cream! I'll keep you posted.

Mexico & Brazilian Wax

**WARNING ... this post may contain TMI for those of you who know me IRL, so beware!**

In less than one month J and I will be sunning ourselves in Cabo San Lucas. We very much deserve this vacation as we haven't been on one since right before we began our TTC journey. I am currently tanning, which I absolutely hate, but have to because of my fair skin. While getting my hair highlighted and cut tonight I talked to my stylist about bikini waxing. I have always wanted to have a Brazilian wax and figured this is just the time to try it, so I made an appointment for a Brazilian wax in a few weeks. I'm not at all nervous about exposing my girly parts because after almost 5 years of IF it seems as though everyone's been down there! However, I'm mildly nervous about the potential pain. My stylist claims it doesn't hurt, but I can't imagine that it won't. So, have any of you had a Brazilian wax and if so how was it? Please be brutally honest ... I need to hear the good, the bad, and the ugly.

(Edited to remove potentially offensive words b/c J thought I was sharing way TMI. I figure that this is my space and I shouldn't have to censor it, but I did. I'm a biologist and don't mind using certain words that apparently might make others uncomfortable, especially some of my relatives who may read my blog.)